I’m so distraught. I’m trying to do things like watch a movie, or clean to decorate tomorrow but I just don’t have the energy to. I don’t even want to sleep. I don’t know what I want right now. I just feel so lost inside. I feel so much hurt and I did this to myself. I hate myself sometimes, I really do. I feel trapped in my sadness and I just want to get out but I can’t because I don’t have the answers.